A New Hobby is at hand.

I'm learning a new art. Ice dying. Basically you bunch up the fabric, cover it in ice, sprinkle powdered dye over it and let the ice melt.
I used an old cream color flat sheet for my first attempt. After 12 hours the ice was melted, ad being curious I took a peek. I wasn't overly impressed, there was to much of the original color showing. So I bunched it back up with the bare patches on top, covered in ice, added dye, and left it alone.
I love how it looks.
unfortunately right now blogspot isn't letting me upload pics right now. I will keep working on it and hopefully it will let me eventually.
after a trip to the park yesterday with Lee we stopped at goodwill to look for a rack I can use in the dying(last time I used the oven rack). I found some fence stuff that will work great. I also went looking at sheets and blankets for me to practice on. I found a couple curtains and a baby blanket to try. I wanted different fabric types and I think these will be fun. One is lace, I'm not sure it will work real well, by I'm going to try.

It's really not poison

Oh good God.
I left two pain pills out for Lee to take in case the kidney stones hurt him while in an at work.
I get home tonight, he's in bed. I go in to talk to him and he says "I didn't take that poison" . After several minutes of me asking him questions he finally says "those two poison pills you left me, you said they were poison so I didn't take them".
I just want to cry for him. I wish I could get through to him all the time.  My heart breaks when he's like this because I can't help him, I can't fix him, I can't make him all better and as a nurse I should be able to.
But I can't fix this. I can't make him better. Instead I climb into bed next to him, after getting his bed time pills together and convincing him they aren't poison. I give him a kiss and I lay here silently crying as he drifts off to sleep and I listen to his slow, even breathing, my heart full of love, but breaking at the hopelessness I feel.
I am a caregiver. I am a wife. I am a nurse.